InsaneJournal

On Wednesday evening I met up with my Tycho Brahe, a supervisor at work who I like quite a bit, and we had a couple of drinks (two which is probably going to be my official limit from now on) and talked for quite a while. 

He has a girlfriend so it was strictly a friendly, hanging-out type thing (though I do find him rather adorable).  We’d planned on discussing books, movies and graphic novels.  He seems to know a lot about McSweeney’s writers and Wes Anderson movies and more comedic stuff that I tend to enjoy when I read it or see it but don’t seek out on my own because I tend to be drawn to darker, fantastic material.  However we ended up talking much more about the personal background and family history. 

Talking to other people in depth always astounds me, there’s always so much more there than I would have ever imaged.  It’s probably something I should do more often because I really am genuinely interested.  It’s almost like everyone has certain major themes in their lives.  With Tycho, some are very different than mine but others are almost eerily similar.   I think it’s too easy for me to forget that other people have internal lives and to assume that they don’t struggle because unlike me they don’t walk around bleeding.

Tycho’s going to be leaving Whole Foods soon.  He’s going to graduate school for literature in the fall, and he also really encouraged me to get the hell out as well because really, I could probably do a lot better. 

I know he’s right.   I sort of know what I have to do but I’ve been putting it off because it requires me to move beyond my comfort zone by dealing with people in interview situations, maybe traveling to unknown neighborhoods and risking rejection.  It also requires I refocus energy and spend less time on both things I enjoy but use to insulate myself from reality (reading manga, watching DVD’s, blogging and my fan fiction writing) and things I do compulsively (obsessing over what I eat, worrying about grocery shopping, and downloading music files I end up never listening to). 

One thing that might motivate me a little is that a lot of people I like are leaving the Market.  In addition to Tycho, another supervisor I really (and wish I’d made more of an effort to get to know) just put in her notice.  Also in September it’ll be two years that I’ve worked there, which is longer than I ever intended.  This might be a good time to start thinking seriously about moving on. 

If only the economy didn’t suck so badly right now...