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my "before" pictures
When I was 22 and 23 years old (in 1994 and 1995) I lost over 100 pounds.  I've managed to keep most of that weight off (though at a tremendous cost-- the time and energy I devote to keeping my weight down has pretty much crippled me in a lot of other areas.  For instance, I don't exactly have a social life or a career.)

While I was at my parents house last week I was looking through some of my things and found some pictures of myself from when I was college age.  Photos of me from this time are fairly rare, I was very reluctant to pose because I thought I was so disgusting.  Looking at them however I can't help but think that I wasn't quite as bad as I thought.  In all honesty the first thing that strikes me when looking at them isn't my size but  my glasses.  They're hideous.  I really should have gotten smaller frames but that wasn't the sort of thing I'd have  ever considered doing at the time because all I could think of was that I was fat and I had to fix that before I could even consider anything else.  I guess I've always had tunnel vision where my weight is concerned. 

Summer 1990, right before I started my freshman year at college.


Fall 1990.  My first day at college.  This was the heaviest I ever got, around 270 lbs.  


Spring 1991.  My sister Vienna (left) came to visit me at SUNY Purchase.  She was a senior at Vassar at the time.


Fast-forward to my junior year of college.  The girl on the right is Vivienne.  I'm in male drag and we're about to go on a "date" to see a double feature of Village of the Damned and Children of the Damned.


Spring, 1994.  My little brother Jackson and I. 


Another photo from Spring of 1994.  This is taken beside a mural I painted in the hallway of my dorm.  I was a senior in college