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bitterfig
the power of orange knickers under my pretty coat

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Location:

Chicago, Illinois, United States

E-mail:

bitter_fig@yahoo.com

Bio:

My fanfiction is archived at

bitterfic. I write mainly slash and femslash in a range of fandoms including Harry Potter, Loveless, Fruits Basket, Revolutionary Girl Utena, Reservoir Dogs, Gravitation and X/1999.

“To whom shall I hire myself out?

What beast must I adore?

What holy image is attacked?

What Hearts shall I break?

What lie must I maintain?

In what blood tread?”

Rimbaud

This is the public yet personal journal of Miss Ana Sara Rexell aka Bitterfig.

I’m 36 years old. I live in Chicago, IL and work as a cashier at Whole Foods.

I’m originally from rural Upstate New York. I grew up in a strict household that frowned upon smoking, drinking, swearing, and pre-marital sex. As a young woman I broke away, attending college near New York City, experimenting with punk personas and performance art. However during graduate school I developed near fatal anorexia and returned home to live with my parents.

My mother took this as a sign that I wasn’t made for the world, that I would always live at home in the bucolic paradise where she had happily spent her whole life. I was to be her stay-at-home child, her companion, and her perpetual little girl.

I tried; really I did, to do what was expected of me, to make the most of my small town existence. I put out a zine, wrote about the arts for the local paper, I was active in the church, I even had a boyfriend for a while but in the end it wasn’t me. Alas, my mother’s little girl was a bi-sexual pseudo-intellectual with artistic ambitions and so in August of 2003 at the age of 32 I fled my motherland for Chicago.

It hasn’t been easy. The attitudes I was raised with are hard to grow beyond. I’m still struggling with disordered eating and issues of faith that have resulted in me leaving the church.

Writing is the way I make sense of the world and this journal is a part of that.

In it I write about both my daily life living, my family, my past and my struggles with psychological problems as well as the books I read, the movies I see and other things that effect me.

All are welcome to read and comment on this journal. You are also welcome to friend my journal. If you do I will probably friend you back within a few days.

Delirium/Delight by Jill Thompson from Sandman: Brief Lives.

Memories:

13 entries

Interests:

150: allen ginsberg, allison anders, amy sedaris, andy warhol, angela carter, anias nin, anne sexton, anorexia, another country, barbie, betti page, billy bragg, bisexuality, buffy the vampire slayer, chicago, clytemnestra, dangerous liaisons, david bowie, david sedaris, depression, derek jarman, divine, diy crafts, dolls, douglas sirk, dyslexic, eastern promises, eating disorder, edger allen poe, edith wharton, edward ii, fafi, fairuza balk, fairy tales, fassbinder, feminism, fight club, fiona apple, firefly, folk music, francesca lia block, frida kahlo, gender analysis, ghost world, giallo, girl groups, glinda the good, gravitation, helena bonham carter, henry darger, henry james, hole, inga muscio, jack white, jackson pollock, james baldwin, jane austen, jane siberry, jeremy piven, joanna newsom, john cameron mitchell, john malkovich, john waters, johnny cash, johnny rotten, joni mitchell, junko mizuno, kenneth anger, lars von trier, laura nyro, leonard cohen, leonora carrington, lesbians, libraries, little women, living dead dolls, love is the devil, loveless, luna lovegood, manga, margaret atwood, marianne faithful, marie antoinette, mark ryden, mary timony, maurice, maurice sendak, max earnst, maya deren, medea, medusa, michael powell, michael stipe, miso pretty, movies, mysterious skin, mythology, nancy sinatra, nancy spungen, nellie mccay, nina simone, npr, obsessive-compulsive, old time music, oscar wilde, outsider art, patti smith, paul auster, phil ochs, pin-ups, pre-raphaelites, prick up your ears, punk, queer, quentin tarantino, reservoir dogs, revolutionary girl utena, riot girl, robert crumb, sandman, sanrio, show tunes, sid and nancy, sophia coppola, strangers with candy, surrealism, the bad seed, the bronte sisters, the dreamers, the red shoes, the slits, the velvet goldmine, the velvet underground, the virgin suicides, this american life, tim burton, tim roth, tipping the velvet, todd haynes, tori amos, used book stores, vegetarian, white stripes, wicked, willa cather, william butler yeats, witches, wizard of oz, writing, yukio mishima

Schools:

None listed

Friends:

	82:	affectionate, allifer, alwaysasnapefan, avialle, bellatonks, bethbethbeth, blasphemy_blue, bookworm_2005, bronze_ribbons, charlotteschaos, chrome_animagus, cluegirl, cnary_crem_dght, creamsicklesky, darklocket, das_dingsi, deanna_hope, diachrony, downtide, dragon_moon, fanlay, fleshdress, florahart, green_amber, gribouille, hildico, hphaeton, hpsauce, hyel, iamisaac, juliette, jyuukoi, kisses4thebeast, knight_move, lash_larue, leda_speaks, lee_west, lilacsigil, liriaen, luciademedici, lunalelle, melusinahp, mercurychaos, mrkinch, nehalenia, nishizono, osmalic, ozma914, pervert_bitch, pettybureaucrat, pinkelephant42, poleva, purplefluffycat, ragdoll, rexluscus, sageofsin, sakru909, sansa1970, scarlettmoon, scribbulus_ink, severity_softly, siriusblackout, sleepdebtfairy, spessartine, stefanie_bean, stewardess, summerborn, sweetmelodykiss, tattooedsappho, tekalynn, the_seventh_l, the_willow, themostepotente, thesnapelyone, torenheksje, torino10154, trie_squid, tripperfunster, unseelie, veleda_k, viverras, xanphibian
	94:	07refugees, 100_women, 100_words, 80sficpicalooza, _morsmordre_, _toujours__pur_, adventdrabbles, albus_gellert, all_fiction, anything_goes, asylum_promo, awdt, batman_fiction, bethmoora, blackcest, blkfeminfic, bonking_tonks, clamp, comicfans, crack100, daily_deviant, daily_yaoi, dailysnitch, darkones, daysoftheweek, dc_flashfiction, de_los_muertos, demilos_wagon, dh_rewrite, dimensions, dreamyeyed_luna, dw_threesomes, fairytale_redux, fandom_and_race, fandom_love, fandomdirectory, fem_exchange, femslash25, fndmchallenges, fruitsbasket, genderswitch, hardcore_hp, harryxteddy, hellblazer, holiday_wishes, hp_beholder, hp_darkfic_recs, hp_femmeslash, hp_prompts, hp_roughside, hp_slashfantasy, hp_unfaithful, hp_wankfest, knows_no_bounds, l_o_v_e_l_e_s_s, lesbolicious, lessersins, lifein1973, luna100, mafia_gangster, marvel_fic, maryrenaultfics, meta_roundup, mixed_music, multi_fiction, no_true_pair, obscurefandom, playinwitheboys, porn_battle, pornish_pixies, potter_prophet, prompt_100, purple_and_gold, quibbler_report, quis_custodiet, redlightme, sacred_identity, sakru_tales, simoun, slashfest, snape_after_dh, snape_rarepairs, tell_me_a_story, thaneros, the_labyrinth, the_pimp_cane, the_unpopular, threesome_fics, unknown_fandom, utena_fans, wickedworld, wishkisses, writers_promo, x1999

Friend of:

80: affectionate, allifer, alwaysasnapefan, avialle, bellatonks, bethbethbeth, blasphemy_blue, bookworm_2005, bronze_ribbons, charlotteschaos, chrome_animagus, cluegirl, cnary_crem_dght, creamsicklesky, darklocket, das_dingsi, deanna_hope, diachrony, downtide, dragon_moon, fanlay, fleshdress, florahart, green_amber, gribouille, hildico, hphaeton, hpsauce, iamisaac, juliette, jyuukoi, kisses4thebeast, knight_move, lash_larue, leda_speaks, lee_west, lilacsigil, liriaen, luciademedici, lunalelle, melusinahp, mercurychaos, mrkinch, nehalenia, nishizono, osmalic, ozma914, pervert_bitch, pettybureaucrat, pinkelephant42, poleva, purplefluffycat, ragdoll, rexluscus, sakru909, sansa1970, scarlettmoon, scribbulus_ink, severity_softly, siriusblackout, sleepdebtfairy, spessartine, stefanie_bean, stewardess, summerborn, sweetmelodykiss, tattooedsappho, tekalynn, the_seventh_l, the_willow, themostepotente, thesnapelyone, torenheksje, torino10154, trie_squid, tripperfunster, unseelie, veleda_k, viverras, xanphibian

Member of:

86: 07refugees, 100_women, 100_words, 80sficpicalooza, _morsmordre_, _toujours__pur_, adventdrabbles, albus_gellert, all_fiction, anything_goes, asylum_promo, awdt, batman_fiction, bethmoora, blackcest, blkfeminfic, bonking_tonks, clamp, comicfans, crack100, daily_yaoi, darkones, daysoftheweek, dc_flashfiction, de_los_muertos, demilos_wagon, dh_rewrite, dimensions, dreamyeyed_luna, dw_threesomes, fairytale_redux, fandom_and_race, fandom_love, fandomdirectory, fem_exchange, femslash25, fndmchallenges, fruitsbasket, genderswitch, hardcore_hp, harryxteddy, hellblazer, holiday_wishes, hp_beholder, hp_darkfic_recs, hp_femmeslash, hp_prompts, hp_roughside, hp_slashfantasy, hp_unfaithful, hp_wankfest, knows_no_bounds, l_o_v_e_l_e_s_s, lesbolicious, lessersins, lifein1973, luna100, mafia_gangster, marvel_fic, maryrenaultfics, multi_fiction, no_true_pair, obscurefandom, playinwitheboys, porn_battle, prompt_100, purple_and_gold, quis_custodiet, redlightme, sacred_identity, simoun, slashfest, snape_after_dh, snape_rarepairs, tell_me_a_story, thaneros, the_labyrinth, the_pimp_cane, the_unpopular, threesome_fics, unknown_fandom, utena_fans, wickedworld, wishkisses, writers_promo, x1999

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